As I sit here thinking, it is just amazing how things work, how things go, and how life flows. I am praying that I can get back to the place that I was, where I was so hopeful about life, that I felt that I could accomplish whatever I put my mind to, but all of those positive thoughts just seem so far away. I do have my life and my health is better, so I am excited about that, but as far as my future I still feel in shambles. By this age I was supposed to have so much more, accomplish so much more, be so much more. It is amazing that I feel like blaming everyone else for where I am, when I can only blame myself. I realize now, I have to take the necessary steps to be happy within my life. No one can provide that happiness for me. I guess I have been sitting back analyzing this “Game of Life” and it does not seem too fair or even too great, but maybe it is because of what I allowed in my life and what I allowed to happen during my life. Sometimes we never take the time just to sit back and analyze things, but thank God for allowing me the time just to observe what life is all about and to get clear on what I want and what I need to do.