Down and Out

I am trying to fight it, but it has such a stronghold on me at this time.  I am trying to release all of the negativity, but it just keeps holding on.  Searching for something or someone but it is just not there.  Feeling alone and unloved… ohhh what a cold cold world we live in.  Promises are meant to be broken and everything good is well you know the rest.  Just trying to figure out what is next for me or is this where I stop.  I just want the pain and the sadness to go away… tired of crying about what is not and the would of ‘s and the could of’s.  Just ready for CHANGE!