I feel so depressed, like I have no control over anything… maybe it is the meds that I am on or maybe it is just the reality of my life right now. I have always been able to set out goals for myself and see myself achieve them, but at this time in my life it is hard to see anything past today. I hate feeling like this… there is so much of the world I want to see and things that I do want to accomplish. This is so ohh very depressing. I am praying that God open my eyes to what He has in store for my future.